If you follow me on Twitter, then you know that last week was very insightful for me – inspiring, encouraging, and energizing – a small revolution. Sometimes, I get very discouraged with myself, with this blog, and other creative endeavors, because I want everything that I put more than a smidgeon of effort into, to be meaningful and to serve a purpose.
I have so many interests, and dare I say – talents – that it’s hard to find the time to do everything that I would like to do and to master my craft, so I must start choosing how I spend my time much more wisely. But, what interests and activities most deserve my time and talent?
Desperate for an answer, I’ve been doing a lot of self-reflecting recently and putting things into perspective, simultaneously setting some goals, and seeking input from people that I genuinely trust and validation through my faith. What I have learned, so far, is that: 1. I do not give myself enough credit. I have accomplished a lot of things, including with this blog. People like what I have to say, and look forward to hearing it, and 2. I must get over my fears (of both complete failure and continued success), and take some risks in order to make a real impact. What am I really afraid of, anyway? What I have decided is that whatever I choose, I will do so with the benefit of others in mind, and not myself; recognition from others is not on my list of goals. With that, things are becoming more clear.
I am confident in what lies ahead, although I’m not certain in what direction my decision will lead. For now, I will proceed with the insight I have gained and the commitments I have made on the road to becoming a master servant. Still with style (I was born with that) and grace (I am a work in progress) of course, but with a renewed sense of purpose and with sanctified ambition.